Sometimes I think I'm really complicated, because it takes a long time to peel away all the layers around me and discover my true intentions. Okay maybe a lot of people have that problem too. You see, it'll be easy if I actually fake my way through things, cause I would be aware of my true intentions once I decide to not put on that facade. But it's weird for me now because I do things based on my genuine intentions and needs (at least at that moment I honestly think I do), and later realise my core is wrapped up in many layers of bandages, defence mechanisms and whatnot that affect my behaviour. I don't even freaking know what all these "layers" are, and they're affecting me. It feels stupid to be complicated without knowing it.